I have emails stacked up in my inbox to take care of, but am having a hard time getting to them. I seem to have slid backwards a bit - I am very tired and can't seem to get a good sleeping pattern. I often have trouble falling asleep, sometimes trouble staying asleep. I either don't at all get enough sleep and lay there exhausted, or I zonk out and sleep til 11:15, like today. And yet, I still don't feel rested.
My body is quite sore - the usual pre-surgery pain in addition to more stiffness than I have experienced lately. It hurts my neck to yawn, there is still obviously a lot of healing left to do.
When I started this blog, I made a promise to be as real as I could be. It doesn't do anyone any good for me to sugarcoat anything. Yes, I am trying to stay positive. But that doesn't mean I need to tell myself and others that this recovery is all lollipops and rainbows, it is neither. It is frustrating. It is tiring, confusing, and full of ups and downs.